MOMENTS STILL

One Moment Here, Another Gone
Part II


Rachel Smith Cobleigh

Story by Rachel Smith Cobleigh
and Joshua Sanofsky




Author and classification notes are at the end.


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        Sean Bouvier looked up from his late dinner when the com beeped.  
Sighing, he swallowed the last bit and wiped his mouth.  "Go ahead," 
he said, and the comscreen blinked on.

        "Bouvier."

        "Miss Sheridan!  It's been a few years, hasn't it?" He smiled 
politely.  "To what do I owe this honor?"

        "You may dispense with that.  I need a favor."

        Sean sat back, waved his chopsticks in the air.  "Really."  He 
grinned and licked a bit of food from the end of one of the sticks.  
"Do tell."

        The chopstick flew out of his fingers and landed in the middle 
of the take-out carton.  Sean paled.  He looked back up at the 
comscreen, but the red-haired witch wasn't looking at him.  She was 
reading over something below the screen.

        He took in a shaky breath, and put the other chopstick down on 
the table.  So, she was calling in her favor, after four years.  He 
had figured, by this point, that she had forgotten about the whole 
incident.  He had almost forgotten about the whole incident, 
until now.

        "Here it is."  

        He jumped, looked back up.  "W-what is?"

        The computer console next to the screen beeped, receiving a 
transmission.  The specifications for a one-man Ranger fighter 
appeared on the screen for several seconds, then blinked off.

        "My ship.  I need clearance off of Minbar, within the hour."

        "I can't just do tha--" the chopstick trembled in the box, 
knocked the carton over.  Chokla lo mein spilled onto the tabletop.  
Sean swallowed, put his hands up, his eyes still fixed on the 
chopstick.  "Okay...within the hour."

        "Thank you."

        "My pleasure," he said tightly.  She nodded, and the screen went 
back to standby.  He let out a long breath, leaned back, and rubbed 
the bridge of his nose.  After four years, and she had to call at a 
time like this.  He wondered why she was in such a hurry, why she 
couldn't just ask her President-daddy to clear her passage.  She was 
still as proud and high-handed as she had been back then.  He wasn't 
genuinely frightened by many people, but her, she sent shivers up his 
spine.  So, he owed her his life.  That didn't mean he had to like it.

        Groaning, he pushed himself out of his chair, leaving the 
overturned take-out carton lying on the table, and went over to get 
the specifications from the console.  How lucky for her, to have saved 
the life of one of the highest-ranking Ranger air comptrollers.  How 
unlucky for him, to have been caught in the middle of a prosperous 
deal, gone sour, and to be left owing her a favor.  Now, here he was, 
sitting alone in his high-view apartment, late after work, eating cold 
take-out and helping some royally prissy teenager run away from home.

        He keyed in his password and entered her flight data into the 
computer logs for the night.  The officers on duty wouldn't notice the 
extra small fighter on the schedule.  Smiling to himself, he tapped in 
the final commands and closed the connection.  He turned back to 
finish his dinner, looked at the noodles spilled on the tabletop, and 
shivered.  Yes, the farther away she was, the better.

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        Kaylenn settled into the small cabin space of the Ranger one-man 
fighter, a mid-range combination of Minbari, Vorlon, and Human 
technology.  The life-support systems could handle a single passenger 
for about a month, in deep space, if needed.  It was more a survey 
ship than a fighter, but it had four small pulse turrets mounted on 
each of the wingtips, which, technically, qualified it for a fighter 
class.  It had been part of a larger fleet on one of the Anla'Shok 
scout ships that had been attacked two weeks earlier by raiders.  The 
carrier's fighter bays had been damaged, and the parts replaced.  This 
little ship was one of the last left-over pieces that had been refitted 
recently.  Erik said she could take it for a spin, if she liked.  It 
wasn't back on active duty, yet--he had just finished tightening up a 
few bolts.

          She had already sent a message to the captain of the Narn cargo 
ship, with a down-payment, and a place and time for their rendezvous.  
His freighter was the closest transport to Vorlon space for another 
month, and even then, at the drop-off point, it would take her three 
weeks in hyperspace to reach the homeworld.  What would happen at that 
point, she did not know.  It just seemed like the best place to go, 
right now.

        She strapped in, keyed up the systems for takeoff.  She 
maneuvered around the various piles of scrap metal and dissected ships, 
and hoped that Bouvier had gone through with his word and entered her 
in the flight records.  She would find out soon enough.

        She lifted off of the ground, ran a quick check to make sure the 
systems were working correctly.  She smiled, imagining Erik's face when 
he realized that the little spin was going to take her a bit farther 
than he expected.  The ship rose higher, moving slowly to keep the 
shock waves from the lifts to a minimum.  

        Almost...there.  She was three klicks up, high enough to engage 
the engines.  The burners ignited, she could see their pale blue flame 
shining behind her, in the closing darkness.  She increased the 
propulsion, the ship coughed for half a second, then cleared, and shot 
forward, out into the eternal black nighttime of space.  There were no 
voices demanding that she identify herself, no patrol ships chasing 
her down.

        She held her breath for another minute, then let it out in a 
long sigh and sank back against the cushioned seat.  She made a note 
to thank him when she returned...if she returned.  She pushed that 
thought away and checked the systems again.  

        One last thing to do before she opened a jump point.  She 
established a connection to a satellite, routed it through the main 
computer system for the Alliance Institute of Medicine, and keyed in a 
password for the personal computer in Franklin's apartments on the 
Institute's compound.  He'd given her the password before he had taken 
a trip to Earth a few months before.  Now, she used it for the first 
time, to download most of his personal log records.  She had questions, 
and those files might have some answers.  The ship's system kept the 
connection until all the information was in memory, several minutes 
later, then beeped.

        "Fine," she said, took a deep breath, and opened a jump point.  
The swirling yellow waves spun closer around the ship, drawing it into 
their grasp.  It stretched her to infinity and back, and then shrunk 
to a single point and disappeared, leaving the stars winking quietly 
in the darkness over Minbar.  Below, her parents slept peacefully.

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        The Narn freighter, the Chon-kar, came out of the jump gates 
over Sigma 957 and drew up towards Kaylenn's small fighter.  She 
pulled the cowl of her brown Ranger robes over her head, covering her 
bonecrest, and flicked the switch to open a com channel.

        "Connection established," intoned the computer.  She turned 
towards the screen.

        "Greetings, Captain Ta'kon."

        "Greetings," the old Narn responded, in thickly-accented 
English.  "You are Kaylenn of Mir?"

        "I am," she said, and smiled to reassure him.  "Is everything in 
order?"

        "Yes, we have cleared an area for your ship in the cargo bay, 
and there are sleeping quarters ready for you.  Payment is due in full 
upon arrival."

        "Of course.  Is that all?"

        "Yes.  We will open the bay and my second will instruct your 
approach."

        "Thank you."

        Ta'kon grunted and the screen winked off.  Another, younger 
voice came over the system.

        "You will please fly under this ship and turn off your forward 
engines."

        Kaylenn complied, angling her way under the belly of the ship 
until she was directly underneath the cargo bay doors, which were 
slowly sliding open.  She cut the engines and did as the voice 
painstakingly instructed, until the fighter was resting on the deck 
and the afterburners were beginning to cool off.  She gathered up a 
bedroll and her toiletries bag, and opened the canopy.  Two Narn stood 
below her on the deck.  Swinging her pack and bedroll over her 
shoulders, she climbed over the cockpit and dropped lightly to the 
floor, her cowl falling back.

        The two Narn looked surprised, and backed a step away.

        "Mistress Sheridan!"  The shorter one said, eyes wide.  

        Cursed appearance.  She smiled.  "Yes."

        "We are honored!"  The tall one made a sort of bow.  The short 
one continued to stare at her head.  Biting her tongue, she nodded 
politely to them and then cleared her throat.

        "I need to speak with Captain Ta'kon, to give him the remainder 
of my payment.  Would you please show me to the bridge?"

        "Of course, of course, Mistress Sheridan," the tall one said, 
smiling back.  "I am P'Kra, and this is Bra'kon.  The Captain sent us 
to escort you to your sleeping bed, first.  Please come this way."

        "I have seen you in vids!"  Bra'kon said excitedly.  P'Kra 
growled down at him, and he quickly subsided.  He seemed to be barely 
more than a young adult.  Kaylenn noted the name and wondered what 
relation he was, if any, to the Captain.  She'd find out, after a 
couple of weeks living with them all.

        "I have tried not to appear in any of them recently, but I am 
flattered that you remember," she answered, readjusting her pack on 
her shoulder and looking away.  P'Kra caught the signal and steered 
Bra'kon towards the doors at the far end of the bay.  She followed, 
pulling the cowl back over her head.  There was no point in 
advertising her appearance to anyone else.  Bra'kon would likely blurt 
it out soon enough, anyway.  She sighed, and followed them into the 
lift.  It would be a long four weeks.

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        It was an uneventful four weeks, in any case.  The Chon-kar 
was a freighter, after all, and not one fitted with particularly 
powerful engines.  The only crew on board were the four needed to run 
the navigation and ship's maintenance, in addition to Captain Ta'kon, 
and his nephew, Bra'kon.  There had been a moment of surprise--and 
anger, on Ta'kon's part--when they realized who she was, but she had 
quietly paid her fare, promised to stay out from underfoot, and taken 
her things to the small cabin she shared with Ke'ran, the only female 
Narn on board.

        She quickly set up a schedule, rising early to meditate, then 
exercising in the ship's small gym room.  She divided her time in the 
afternoons between studying the information she had downloaded from 
Stellarcom on the Vorlon homeworld--which, even this many years after 
it had been located, was still, in large part, a mystery--and watching 
Franklin's logs.  They didn't yield any further information on Lorien, 
Kosh, or her abilities, as she had wished, but they told a story that 
she had never before seen with such personal effect.

        Of course, every history lit had vids and a retelling of the 
Shadow War, the subsequent Babylon 5 - Earth War, the Centauri - I.S.A. 
War, the Telepath War, and the handful of smaller conflicts from more 
recent years, but they were cold texts, citing dates and statistics 
and strategies.  They detailed social pressures on a dozen different 
worlds that were a factor in the tensions at the dawn of the Alliance, 
economic and technological benefits that each race received upon 
joining, all of the science included.  The story of the people, though, 
only few could tell, and Franklin was one of the few.  She watched his 
logs, in part for the story that they told, and in part for the small 
wish that she might find some scrap of hope in the past.

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        "What business do you have going to the homeworld of the 
Vorlons?"  Ke'ran asked, from the bunk beneath Kaylenn in the small 
cabin.  Kaylenn lay, looking up at the ceiling, a mere half-meter 
above her.  This room had obviously not been designed for a bunk-bed 
setup.  She reached up and ran her fingertips along the smooth 
plasteel surface.  Sighing, she dropped her hand back down to rest on 
her stomach.  Ke'ran was a little older than she, and this was one of 
her first voyages into space.  She had completed her training as a 
ship's navigator, and had been hired on by Captain Ta'kon only a few 
months earlier.  She treated Kaylenn with disdain and thinly-veiled 
annoyance.  They almost never spoke, except before falling off to 
sleep.  After two weeks, the inevitable question had finally been 
asked.

        "What makes you think it is your business?"

        "No offense intended, I was only curious," Ke'ran snapped.

        "As is the rest of the crew."

        "You cannot blame them; no one ever goes there.  It is an 
unusual request for us to perform," Ke'ran replied, a defensive note 
in her voice.  "Captain Ta'kon is especially concerned that some harm 
would befall you, and he would be called to blame."

        "Once you have dropped me off, he is not responsible.  He knows 
that."

        "He is person of great honor, Miss Sheridan."

        Kaylenn sighed.  She had long since stopped asking them to call 
her by her name.  They insisted on the more formal family title, and 
now Ke'ran used it as an accusing reminder of the reason they were 
worried for her safety.  If anything happened to her, they would be 
held responsible.  That was the way of things.  She closed her eyes.  
She should not have put them in this position.

        "So, I ask you--if I may--what your business is.  For a scouting 
mission, would not your father send someone..." Ke'ran trailed off, 
searching for the most tactful way to speak her mind, "...someone 
less...visible?  And why could you not fly a ship that would get you 
there in less than a week?  Surely there are better ships than the 
small one you are using."  She was pressing in, hunting, and Kaylenn 
knew it.

        "My father does not know I am out here," Kaylenn said quietly, 
answering the bait. 

        "I knew it," Ke'ran growled.  "Deserting your family because you 
are unhappy is dishonorable."  Her voice took on a prodding tone.  "Is 
it another sorry story of being a poor little rich girl?  The First 
Family is so perfect on the outside, but in truth--"

        "Ke'ran," Kaylenn cut her off, pushing a flare of anger down. 
"I am of age.  I have not deserted my family.  I have left with his 
blessing.  In fact, I am searching for a cure for him–"  She stopped.  
It was a private matter that was not to be discussed outside the 
family.  She cursed herself for making such a slip.  Ke'ran was silent 
for a long moment, and when she spoke again, her voice was quieter.

        "I assumed–"

        "Ke'ran, if there is any question that you ever have of my 
parents, or my family," she paused, rolled on to her stomach, and 
looked over the edge of the mattress, down at Ke'ran.  "I will tell 
you, with the utmost honesty and truthfulness, that they are good 
people.  They make mistakes like us, only their mistakes are more 
visible.  They carry so much weight on their shoulders, but still they 
stand, despite everything.  I have only the greatest respect and honor 
for them both, and I do not take it lightly when someone speaks 
otherwise of them."

        Something in Kaylenn's eyes made Ke'ran feel a moment of fear, 
and she  swallowed.  "My apologies."  

        "Is that why you are so angry with me?  Because you believe that 
I am a 'spoiled little rich girl'?"  Kaylenn pressed on, raising her 
eyebrows. 

        Ke'ran looked straight at her, defiant.  "I was born into a 
family living in the dirt on Tekara Prime; one of sixteen.  It's a 
barren wasteland of mining companies.  You breath in toxic dust and 
die young.  Everything that I have now was earned and scraped for.  
When I finally won scholarship to an offworld university, I went with 
nothing more than the clothes I was wearing that day.  I watched 
everyone else complain while they had all they needed, and yet I just 
bit my tongue and kept scraping for a little more."  She looked away.  
"You have everything...and I resented that when I first saw you come 
on board.  It was my cabin that you were to share, not anyone else's.  
You had the money to buy passage.  I will only make enough on this job 
to live until the next one, no more.  The rest of my family is either 
dead or still living in poverty.  You have everything you could ever 
want.  You are different in your appearance--people notice you.  I am 
just another Narn, no one looks twice at me.  So yes, that is why."  
Ke'ran's eyes were burning.

        Kaylenn rolled back over and looked up at the ceiling again.  
She paused before answering.

        "I am going to the Vorlon homeworld in the hope that I will find 
answers."

        "Answers," Ke'ran echoed, disdainfully.  "How noble."

        "It is not.  Just simple desperation."

        "What are you desperate for?  What do you need that you don't 
already have?"

        "One close to me is dying, Ke'ran," she replied, softly.  "He 
will be gone in little more than a month."

        "And why do you think that his cure is there?"  Ke'ran asked, 
somewhat subdued.

        "Because I believe that the...disease...in some part, originated 
there."

        "In your small ship, from the point that we are to let you off, 
it will take you yet another month to get there.  How can you hope to 
find a cure with no time left?"

        "You see the desperation, now."

        Ke'ran did not speak again, and Kaylenn did not sleep.  

        Four hours later, she gave up trying, and went down to her ship 
in the bay.  She loaded in another of the personal log files and 
settled in to watch.

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VIDEO ON

        "Everything's a mess right now," Franklin said, shaking his head.
"After President Santiago's death last week, Garibaldi in critical 
condition here in the MedLab, and now Sinclair transferred back to 
EarthDome."  He got up, and the vid cam followed his movements.  "And 
on top of that--" he put his hands on his hips, "--Ambassador Delenn 
is in some sort of cocoon--don't ask me what's going with that--Lennier 
told me to be prepared to help, but what does he think I'm supposed to 
be able to do if he doesn't let me in to examine it?  All my requests for 
information from Minbar have been shunted around through various 
dignitaries, and I get the distinct impression they're avoiding me.  I 
read all I could on Minbari biology, and there isn't any mention anywhere 
of them using cocoons at any stage in their development!"  His voice had 
been rising, arms making frustrated gestures in the air.  He seemed to 
notice them, and pushed them into the pockets of his pants.  He laughed, 
a strained, disbelieving sort of sound, then sobered.

        "The station personnel is in upheaval, what with the death of 
Santiago, and Sinclair's recall orders.  Garibaldi took such a hit, 
his body under so much stress--he wasn't sleeping well before, I could 
tell, and now..." He trailed off, looked away.  "I don't know.  I've 
tried all I know to stabilize him, propped him with as many regen 
packs as I can, but his spinal cord was fused in two places.  We can 
repair the damage, but I don't know how well he'll do.  All I can do 
is wait and hope, and that's fragging frustrating!"  He was pacing 
now, back and forth, in a tight little circle.  After a moment, he 
stopped, remembering something.

        "Oh, Ivanova told me this morning--Earth Central is sending in a 
new C.O., Captain John Sheridan.  They have high hopes that he'll be 
their new golden boy, I think.  Sinclair bucked them, and they didn't 
like that.  It'll be interesting to see what Sheridan does."  He 
crossed his arms, gave another short, disbelieving laugh.  "After this 
many years, and we end up serving together again.  Hero of the Earth-
Minbari War, good P.R. back home."  He frowned, looked up at the 
screen.  "I wonder...I know that the Minbari leaned hard to get 
Sinclair stationed here--still don't know why--and that they call 
Sheridan 'Starkiller'.  I somehow don't think they'll be pleased to 
find him running this place, now."  He comlink beeped.

        "Franklin here."

        "Sir, there's a Pak'Ma'Ra convulsing in MedLab 3, and we can't 
get in close enough to sedate it." Dr. Hobbs' voice came over the tiny 
speaker.

        "I'll be there.  Franklin out."

        He looked up at screen.  "Stop record."  

        It winked off.

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        Kaylenn turned off the vid recorder and pushed herself out of the 
seat, feeling tired and worn.  As the ship slowly crawled closer to the 
Vorlon homeworld, she had been feeling a tiny, but unmistakable...
something.  It wasn't enough to quantify, to even express in words, 
but it was there, and she knew that it was growing in scope.  She 
sighed, climbed down from the fighter's cockpit, and walked across the 
cargo bay, to the lift.

        She had finished the highlights of Franklin's first year on the 
Babylon 5 station--the end of it's second year of operation.  It was 
the story of the past from an intimate point of view that so few had--
that so few had survived to tell.  

        Gathering her robe around her shoulders more tightly, she tried 
to push away the pinprick that tugged at the farthest corner of her 
mind.  It was not just a feeling of urgency, though that was part of 
it, but it was something else, added to it.  Something that she needed 
to be concerned with, but that she had no power over.  It was all so 
frustrating.  Ke'ran had been almost right: it would take another three 
weeks to reach the Vorlon homeworld, and if the precise timetable that 
her father was on was correct, she would have less than week before all 
hope was gone.

        She swallowed back the lump that had risen in her throat, and 
stepped into the lift.

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VIDEO ON

        Franklin leaned back from the screen and sat with his arms 
resting on his knees, excited, but tired.  "Ambassador Delenn has been 
gracious and patient with all of my poking and prodding--she's amazing.
It took me almost two weeks to finish recalibrating the instruments to 
her half-Minbari, half-Human biology.  Incredible.  At first, I didn't 
know what to make of her...change.  Now, well, now I'm just in awe of 
that machine.  I tried looking it over--with her and Lennier watching 
my every move--but I can't make head or tail of it."  He gave a short 
laugh.  "All it looked like to me was a pile of crystal triangles and 
some alien power cells.  They could have been pulling my leg, for all 
I know, and could've been hiding the actual machine somewhere else.  
Minbar's still not giving me any information, any statements, any 
comments on her recent change.  They're 'politely declining to discuss 
the situation with me at this time, and any questions should be taken 
up with the Ambassador, thank you.'"  He finished the last comment in 
an irritated voice, and sat back, frustrated.  After a moment, he 
raised his eyebrows and continued.

        "Otherwise, things have slowed back down again.  Garibaldi's been 
up for three days now, kicking, plotting, driving my med techs crazy.  
He's recovering quickly," he said, with a crooked, relieved smile.  
"Ivanova is still looking a little tense, but she's visibly more 
relaxed since Sheridan came on board.  He's a little different than 
what I expected--he seemed harder, sharper, the last time I saw him.  
I guess a few years being a captain, enjoying some perks, maybe he 
softened up some; ten years, no threat of war.  He's on top of things 
around here, anyway.  Ivanova served under him at the transfer point 
off Io a few years back, so at least there's no conflicts between them, 
and the station's running relatively smoothly.  Earth Central has 
relaxed their...watchfulness...a bit, also."  He yawned.  "Well, next 
shift's in four hours.  I'd better crash while I can.  Stop record."  

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VIDEO ON

        "Long day," Franklin said, rubbing his eyes.  He looked up at the 
screen and yawned.  "Just another...long...day.  Sheridan managed to 
get himself abducted by aliens--heh, ironic, considering we're living 
on a space station populated with a couple hundred thousand of them.  
These ones were the Striebs, or something; I don't remember what 
Garibaldi called them when he towed Sheridan in.  The Captain had three 
holes in his forehead, multiple abrasions, and two broken ribs--and a 
Narn bodyguard, just for good measure--but he's alive."  He shook his 
head, massaged the bridge of his nose.  "Ahhh, I'm so tired.  It seems, 
every week, there's some new crisis, big or small.  Ivanova told me 
that Delenn was asking her about what sounds like the onset of her 
menstrual period."  His fingers tapped the arm of the couch.  "I'll 
have to check in on her to make sure that everything has been going 
okay.  It's got to be a shock to her; Minbari females don't experience 
anything similar.  I don't know to what extent, exactly, she's been 
changed.  She's such a strange combination of both biologies, now, that 
almost anything is possible, given time.  Ahhh.  I'll do my best.  
Hmm."  His hand tapped one last time.  "Good night."

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        "How do you wash your...har?"  Ke'ran seemed unsure of the last 
word.

        "Hair," Kaylenn corrected, half-smiling.  She had just come out 
of the tiny sonics unit in the side of the washroom, and Ke'ran was 
sitting on the bedroom floor, looking up at her in puzzlement.  A Narn 
was gesturing wildly on the vid screen, waving a pike or some other 
sort of prehistoric weapon.

        "Ha-ayr," Ke'ran repeated.

        "What are you watching?"

        Ke'ran smiled.  "It is a classic--Chon-kar B'Nyt--'Blood-
oath of B'Nyt', I think you would call it.  B'Nyt was one of our greatest
heros, many hundred years ago.  He died to save the honor of his clan,
and formed the Ka'arii; he led them against the Darkness."

        "I think I've read about him, in the history lits."

        "So, how do you do it?"

        "Do what?"

        "Wash your--hair?"

        Kaylenn laughed, and pulled a tunic over her head, reached up to 
slide the wide neck around her bonecrest.  "Well, I can't, not here, 
anyway.  That's what I miss from not being on a Whitestar: running 
water.  Sonics just don't quite...clean...hair, and this phosphate-
conditioner gel makes my scalp itch in hard-to-reach places.  Gaah."  
She made a face and reached up her fingers to scratch under the edge 
of the crest.  "You have no idea how lucky you are not to have to deal 
with hair."

        "Yours is very beautiful."

        "Thanks," she said, tugging on a pair of pants. 

        "But, in those hard-to-reach places, how do you wash them?"

        Kaylenn smiled.  "It looks harder than it is.  Here, look."  She 
walked over to Ke'ran, and bent down, tilted her head for the other to 
see the edge of her crest.  "It's actually porous, in a way.  There are 
many small channels in the bone where it contacts my skull."  She 
pushed her hair aside for Ke'ran to see, then reached up and pulled a 
section of it up, through the bone wall, sliding it up easily.  Ke'ran 
raised her brows, and she reached up to touch the bone.

        "You can not see that from a distance."

        "The channels are small, but there are many of them.  I usually 
just turn my head upside-down, separate the hair above the crest--pull 
it up--from the hair underneath, then wash both sections.  Then, dry 
it--" She turned her head back up, and slid the strand back into the 
channels under it, smoothed the section left above.  "--and slide it 
back down.  The worst part is when someone catches you with half the 
hair still hanging out above the crest."  She tucked the gel tube back 
into the toiletries bag and left it in the washroom, then came out, 
leaned in the doorway for a moment.  "David calls me a jellyfish when 
he sees me like that.  He doesn't have anything to worry about--he 
keeps it pretty short.  My father," she said softly, looking away.  
"He calls it a crown..."

        "A princess, then," Ke'ran said dryly, looking up at her.

        Kaylenn shook her head and pushed herself away from the doorway, 
went across the room to fold her clothing.  "To him, only.  It's just 
the way I was born--"  She took in deep breath, her hands stilled on 
the half-folded cloth.  Along with a few other traits.  Two crumpled 
bodies, two different places, flashed through her mind.  She shut her 
eyes and swallowed back the sudden wave of self-revulsion and fear.  
She reached out with a mental hand to steady herself...and found 
herself reaching out farther and farther...

        They are coming.  

        Sucking in a sudden breath, she pulled back and opened her eyes.
She frowned, staring at the blank wall before her.  Who?  

        "Are you all right, Miss Sheridan?"  Ke'ran had half-started to 
rise, and Kaylenn turned to look at her, nodded.

        "Fine."  She swallowed, then pushed the growing feeling back 
away and returned to folding her shirt.  "I'm fine."

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VIDEO ON

        "Well, that was strange," Franklin said, sitting down in front of 
the console.  "I heard a Vorlon ship had arrived, but I didn't know 
what business they had.  Sheridan and Delenn just walked in half an 
hour ago, looking ragged, but otherwise pretty much unharmed."  He 
titled his head, raised an eyebrow.  "Pretty much.  They were close-
mouthed about it, but I got the impression that they'd just been 
through some ordeal with that Vorlon--" he frowned.  "Perhaps not a 
Vorlon, but someone or something it brought to this station."  He 
paused for a second.  "Mm, Delenn had burn marks on both her wrists; 
they were especially strange--only first-degree burns, though they 
looked worse.  She would only say that they were caused by Vorlon 
technology.  I gave her some salve to apply, and instructions on how to 
use it.  She was somewhat dehydrated, also, and exhausted.  She's 
strong, though; two days rest and she'll be fine."  He tapped his 
fingers idly on the edge of the console.  

        "Sheridan is going to have some bruising--also extremely 
strange," Franklin frowned.  "It--it's like," he paused, searching.  
"Like someone hit him a few times, on both sides, with a heavy...
blanket...or something.  Or a blanket of force."  He shook his head.  
"Primarily upper torso and face.  Hm.  It's going to be a little 
uncomfortable sleeping for the next few days."  He looked up.  "I wish 
I knew what happened.  Garibaldi's more than a little upset right now, 
and he's got his men scouring the place for someone named 'Sebastian', 
who's somehow responsible for their...state.  Vorlon courier?  I don't 
know."

        He thought of something, and his mood changed slightly.  A half-
smile almost made it's way across his face.  "Sheridan and Delenn...an 
interesting combination.  I overheard Myers talking about their dinner 
in Fresh Aire a few weeks ago, and just dismissed the gossip as an 
ambassadorial meeting.  Now, I'm not so sure.  Myers said she looking 
stunning, and that the entire restaurant was shocked into silence, 
including our good captain, who very quickly became protective when 
someone got too curious."  Franklin smiled, now.  "It's just a nice 
change of pace, in the middle of all the rest of this insanity."  He 
sighed.  "The Narn-Centauri conflict is heating up.  There have been 
several outbreaks of violence in the past two days.  Garibaldi is up 
to his ears, tense, snapping at everyone.  Something's going to break, 
and soon."

                          **********************

VIDEO ON

        "The flow seems to have paused for a few minutes," Franklin said.
"The Centauri destroyed the Narn homeworld only hours ago, using mass 
drivers.  The flood of Narn refugees is overrunning this station, we 
can't handle much more, but they just keep coming.  There are a half-
dozen Narn ships outside, now, waiting for care for their wounded.  
Sheridan's issued a statement that Babylon 5 will help the Narn with 
any food supplies or medical attention that they need.  Garibaldi has 
his men all over the station right now, struggling to keep the riots 
to a minimum.  We already have a group of Centauri in Medlab 3, beaten 
within an inch of their lives."  Franklin shook his head.  "We need to 
get assistance from Earth, supplies, anything, but they're dragging 
their feet on getting involved.  Sheridan's forced them into a tight 
position with his statement, and I have been unable to get much in the 
way of cooperation out of them.  We're running dangerously low, we 
need more!"

        "Twenty-five more coming in to Medlab 2, sir!"  Security came 
over the speaker.

        "Copy that, we don't have any more room over here," Franklin 
said.  "People are out in the hallways!"

        "They're coming in Doc, make room," Garibaldi growled.

        "Right," Franklin said sarcastically.  "Put them in the bay in 
Isolab, then."

        "Isolab?"

        "It's all we've got," Franklin snapped.  "Franklin out."  He 
turned to the screen.  "Stop record."

                         **********************

        

        "We will be arriving at the closest point in our route in a few 
days, Miss Sheridan.  Will that be all?"  P'Kra said, on the 
viewscreen.  

        "Yes; thank you, P'Kra."

        "You are welcome, Miss Sheridan.  We will let you know two hours 
in advance of arrival, so that you can prep your ship."

        "Thank you."  

        The screen winked off, and Kaylenn turned away with a sigh.  She 
was tense, impatient.  She just needed to work out some knots.  Picking 
up a towel, she left the small cabin and made her way across the ship, 
along the familiar daily route, down to their small gym.  She left the 
towel on a rack near the door and sat down on a piece of equipment.  
She noted the setting; the Narn used them, and were annoyed when 
personal settings were changed.  She would reset it when she finished.

        As she pushed the weights up, working her arms, running through 
the routine, she let her mind drift.  Three of them were playing some 
sort of card game on the bridge; Captain Ta'kon was reading the news 
broadcasted by the Narn homeworld.  Through the hyperspace relays, it 
took some two hours to receive the entire day's transmission, so when 
the Captain read, no one disturbed him.  Bra'kon was off, fine-tuning 
a mechanism in the rear of the cargo hold.  Ke'ran was running routine 
checks on the nav system.

        Outside, there was nothing; no whispers, no words, just the 
silent swirling of hyperspace.  Kaylenn did not reach out any farther, 
she held some dread of contacting whoever, or whatever, was out there 
right now.  Completely alien, yet somehow familiar.  It was coming 
closer, perhaps already here.  She sighed; she had already passed stir-
crazy, boredom, and the sickening feeling of wasting time.  After 
three and a half weeks on this ship, all she could do was wait.  If 
she stopped thinking, the crumpled bodies would appear, lying in the 
darkness, and then she would kick and fight them back, go find a vid 
in Franklin's logs to watch, or download every reference to the Vorlon 
homeworld from StellarCom and study it for a while.  Images of her 
mother, alone and crying, came, and Kaylenn would swallow them hard 
away and push more stubbornly against the gym bars. 

        Sometimes, in his logs, Franklin included pieces of secure cam 
footage, ISN broadcasts, recordings from things he was studying in 
Medlab.  He didn't do it often; after all, personal logs were used 
primarily to record issues that the command staff didn't put in 
official reports.  However, he occasionally took the time to include 
things that might be useful in the future.  They were always 
intriguing, telling a story or relaying some information that 
otherwise would have been lost completely to memory.  As she watched 
them, seeing events that shaped the universe she lived in right now, 
she realized that entire races existed right now, because of her 
parents.  The history lits downplayed their roles; no two people could 
ever have influenced so much--but it was true.  They had stood on the 
bridge between life and death and had made the decision.  

        A decision that came back to haunt them even now.

                          **********************


VIDEO ON

        Franklin sat in his quarters, jacket unbuttoned.  He was tired, 
but there was a light in his eyes.  "Sheridan declared independence 
today.  Earth will retaliate, and quickly.  Delenn is on Minbar, we 
still haven't been able to get word to her in the capital city.  Their 
entire world is split in a civil war between the warrior and religious 
castes.  I'm preparing Medlab for the coming battle.  We've got about 
a day before the fleet from Earth arrives.  I pulled this broadcast 
off in Medlab, saved it.  If we live through tomorrow, I'm going to 
want to have a record of this day."  He leaned forward, pressed a 
button below the screen, and a station control screen appeared.  The 
tiny white cursor selected "PLAY RECORDING", and another vid winked 
on.  It was a recording of a gold-hazy hologram of her father, so 
young, his face set and his voice defiant.      

        "May I have your attention, please.  In the last few 
        hours, we have learned that warships are coming this 
        way from Earth.  Their orders are to seize command of 
        Babylon 5, by force.  As commanding officer and 
        military governor of Babylon 5, I cannot allow this 
        to happen.  President Clark has violated the Earth 
        Alliance Constitution.  By dissolving the Senate, 
        declaring martial law, and personally ordering the 
        bombing of civilian targets on the Mars Colony, he is 
        personally responsible for the deaths of hundreds of 
        innocent people.  Following these attacks, Orion 7 and 
        Proxima 3 have broken away from the Earth Alliance and 
        declared independence.  Babylon 5 now joins with them.  
        As of this moment, Babylon 5 is seceding from the 
        Earth Alliance.  We will remain an independent state--
        until President Clark is removed from office.  At the 
        end of this current crisis, anyone who wishes to leave 
        for Earth is free to do so.  Meanwhile, for your own 
        safety, I urge everyone to stay in your quarters until 
        this is over.  That is all."

        The vid winked off, and Franklin appeared again.

        "Only a few hours left," he said, and swallowed.  "We fight."

                           **********************



        Kaylenn pulled her sleeping bag off the top bunk and rolled it 
into a small bundle, fastened the ties.  Leaving it on the floor, she 
went over to the three boxes stacked in the corner, and carried each 
of them over to bunk, heaved them back up there, where they had been 
when she arrived.  Ke'ran had used the empty bunk to store her few 
things out of the way, and now the space was all hers again.  Kaylenn 
wondered how lonely it was for her to spend months at a stretch in the 
dead of space, with no one else to really talk to.  Ke'ran resisted 
the attention of the males on board, and kept almost entirely to 
herself.  The late-night conversations between the two of them had 
grown from a strained politeness to an unexpectedly close friendship 
that made the long journey bearable.  The journey was not over for 
either of them, just yet.  Three weeks still remained for Kaylenn's 
fighter to reach the edge of Vorlon space, and the Chon-kar had 
another month to go before reaching it's Pak'Ma'Ra drop-off point.  
Another few lonely weeks for both of them.

        Kaylenn bent down and picked up her bedroll.  Taking it under 
one arm, she slung her pack over her other shoulder and turned back to 
look around the small room that she had lived in for the past month.  
There was just the tiny sonics washroom, a small vid screen with a 
limited selection on the far wall, Ke'ran's few things standing about 
the room.  Kaylenn turned and walked away, following the familiar 
hallways, until she reached the hangar bay.  They would arrive at her 
drop-off point in less than an hour; her ship was fueled, waiting to 
be warmed up and set for autopilot.

        She climbed up the side, and made her way into the cabin space.  
She dropped the pack and bedroll off in the corner, and sat down 
behind the system controls.  Activating the computer, she keyed in a 
quick systems check, then started the main engines.  They warmed up 
slowly, over the next several minutes, and as the ship hummed to 
itself, she got up and retracted the ladder, closed the hatch, and 
secured her things in the tiny bunk room behind the cabin.  The com 
beeped.

        "Answer," she said, and the computer opened the connection.

        "Miss Sheridan, nearing drop-off point, thirty standard 
minutes."  P'Kra's deep voice came over the speakers.

        "Acknowledged," she called back, checking one last time over the 
supplies in the food cabinet.  "Systems check in progress."

        "Please do not activate your main engines until you are at least 
half a klick from the Chon-kar.  Docking thrusters only to maneuver 
out of our safety zone."

        "I understand," she replied, rolling her eyes.  They assumed 
that she was a novice pilot, and had taken extreme care in explaining 
everything about the drop-off procedure.  She had not made any 
concerted effort to dissuade them--she preferred it that way.  It let 
them feel certain that she had been properly guided, so that their 
ship was not in danger, and let them think that she was the young, 
naive rich girl that most people mistook her for.  It was better to be 
underestimated. 

        "First officer out."

        "Ranger out."

        She went back into the cabin and watched the diagnostics read-
out for a few seconds, then sat down and pulled up the next log from 
Franklin's files.  There was really nothing else to do for the next 
while, except wait.  She set the vid to play and sat back to watch.  
The ship hummed and the computer beeped it's next system check 
completion.

                          **********************



        She guided the ship down and out of the hangar bay, and 
carefully maneuvered away from the Chon-kar with the thrusters.  The 
proximity display beeped, and she ignited the main engines.  Pale blue 
fire glowed in the background of realspace.

        "Captain Ta'kon, I would like to extend my thanks to you and 
your crew for your hospitality and graciousness.  I have greatly 
enjoyed the time spent aboard your vessel, and I hope that our ways 
meet again."

        "I, too, Miss Sheridan," Ta'kon replied, almost-but-not-quite 
smiling into the viewscreen.  "I will convey your thanks to them.  
Please take the utmost care in the remainder of your journey."

        "I will, and thank you for the extra provisions."  Extremely 
useful, and generous of them, to give the extra rations and air tanks.
No one was quite sure what the state of the atmosphere around the 
Vorlon homeworld was, so they insisted that she bring more of an air 
supply than the ship already had.  She did not argue.

        "Be careful, Miss Sheridan!"  Ke'ran's voice came from the back 
corner of the bridge.  Kaylenn smiled as the Narn moved into view.  
"We will meet again."

        "We will," Kaylenn replied, inclining her head towards the 
screen in a minute bow.  "Good-bye."

        Ta'kon inclined his head, also, as did Ke'ran, and then the 
screen went blank.  Kaylenn settled farther back into the seat and 
looked out into the black void.  Tiny stars winked, spread out a 
million miles apart in the canopy.  It was both beautifully rich and 
frighteningly barren.  She took a deep breath, and set the engines to 
the maximum burn that could be maintained for three weeks.  The 
proximity display showed the Chon-kar moving away again, leaving she 
and her ship alone in the night.  A jump point opened half a klick 
away; she closed the distance quickly, and flew into the swirling red 
storms of hyperspace.

        To avoid the insanity of living three weeks entirely cut off 
from any other form of intelligence, she would meditate and go into a 
kind of hibernation state for several hours at a time.  She still 
needed to wake to eat and to remain clean, at intervals, but, 
hopefully, this would make the time waiting bearable.  She reclined 
the seat, laid her arms crosswise on her chest, tilted her head back 
slightly, and closed her eyes.  

        She could sleep, but she couldn't keep the dreams away.

                           **********************



        It was strange; they sat on the balcony, side by side, silent, 
staring out past her.  What were they looking at?  Something over her 
shoulder.  They weren't afraid, so it couldn't be anything frightening.
She swallowed and turned to look, herself, half-expecting some great 
black monster to rise up from under the edge of the balcony wall, but 
instead she began to see light.

        It was a warm light, oranges and yellows and pale pastels.  She 
had looked out this balcony countless times since her childhood--it 
was on the top floor of the mansion-like building that the family 
lived in.  The grounds of the Interstellar Alliance headquarters were 
directly below, and the capital city of Tuzanor stretched out before 
her, going on, past the edge of the horizon.  As she turned around, 
she saw the light coming up farther over the hills, and then the 
single sun of the Minbari homeworld rose over the points of the far 
crystal mountains.  The lights reflected around and through the 
crystal, shooting rays between the waterfall and the spires of the 
Shao Temple, spreading across the landscape.  She felt the warmth of 
the light, and it poured into her being, even as she knew she was not 
truly there.  It warmed the bare skin on her arms, and something 
deep inside, something that felt cold and unturned was nudged, just a 
little, by the rays.  She took in a deep breath, and turned back to 
look at her parents, making the movement in slow motion.  

        Her mother was leaning into her father's embrace, and her eyes 
were closed, soaking in the warmth of both the sun and his body.  She 
looked at such peace that Kaylenn's heart ached, and she swallowed.  
Her father's eyes were not closed, however.  He continued to stare 
through her, at the sunrise, far away.  The smallest furrows stood in 
his brow, and he held his wife a little tighter.  Her mother opened 
her eyes, and Kaylenn saw a whisper of silent pain pass through them.

        Her mother slowly sat up straighter, her gaze following his, and 
they remained side by side for a long moment.  Then, to Kaylenn's 
horror, her father began to fade.  Not quickly, not obviously, but as 
she looked at him, he suddenly was dimmer, less defined around the 
edges.  Still, her mother sat, straight, looking ahead.  As she 
continued to watch in horror, unable to move, to make a sound, to 
reach out to them, he faded...farther and farther away...until she had 
silently screamed herself hoarse trying to call his name, and by then 
he was gone.

        The light had gone, and her back was cold.

                           **********************



        She flung her eyes open and sat up suddenly, a half-scream risen 
in her throat.  Her hand clutched her chest, and a sheen of sweat 
covered her, making her tunic uncomfortably damp.  Strands of hair 
clung to her neck.  She looked out the main viewscreen, watching the 
reddened clouds inch slowly by, and finally took in a deep breath, let 
it out.  Her throat was dry and her tongue was thick.  Swallowing 
clumsily, she pushed away at her hair, kept taking in deep breaths.  
After a moment, she unbuckled the belt, slid forward out of the 
reclined seat, and stumbled back the few steps to the tiny washroom.  
It was becoming more and more difficult to remain in the hibernation-
sleep.  The repeating dreams, the fighting that seemed to have no 
effect on the monsters she fought, and left her exhausted when she woke 
up...and the sense, still growing more insistent, that an event was 
building up to happen.

        As she pulled on a clean shirt, she walked to the console and 
checked the position.  Two weeks left, if her calculations were 
correct.  She went back and found a couple of dry ration bars and a 
bottle of water, brought them to the console.  She set the seat back 
up, sat down, and took a drink.  She couldn't sleep, the food tasted 
bland, and her scalp itched.  She scratched it irritatedly.  Might as 
well watch another vid.  She typed in a command, peeled open a ration 
bar, and sat back to watch.

                          **********************

VIDEO ON

        "Sheridan is dead.  The Shadows stopped their attack."  
Franklin's eyes were unfocused on a spot far past the screen.  "It's 
as if everyone is holding their breath."

                          **********************

        

        Kaylenn wedged herself into the small space between the seat and 
the toilet area and pushed her toes under the edge of the control 
casing.  Blowing out air through her lips, she began doing crunches, 
bringing her chest up, relaxing back, tightening up, relaxing back.  
The rhythm of the movement gave her something to concentrate on; 
working the knots out of her back, watching her knees come closer, 
then fall back again.  She didn't keep track of how many that she did; 
when her stomach was tired, she turned on her side and worked her legs.

        It felt good to be doing something, it didn't matter what.  
Anything but sleep.  She was sick of sleeping--or rather, not 
sleeping.  It was more than enough to put her in a sour mood, and what 
better way to keep it from taking over than to force her body through 
strenuous activity.  She needed to do it, anyway; sleeping for so many 
days left her feeling like she wanted to attack something.  It might 
as well be herself.

        After she had worked up a decent sheen of sweat, considering the 
amount of space that she had to move in, she heaved herself off the 
floor and went looking for a packet of chla mix.  She heated one in a 
bottle and went back to sit down, looked out the viewscreen.  As she 
sipped the drink, she relaxed back, let her eyes close to slits.

        Something swept by.

        She threw herself forward and looked out the screen, startled.  

        "Computer, proximity report!"

        "No vessel within range," it replied.

        "No, of course not," she muttered.  She played back the moment 
in her mind, looked out again.  It was nothing, it had to be.  Just a 
wisp of light, of mist.  Perhaps a cloud of gas.

        But she knew she wasn't alone.

        She sighed, pushed the feeling away, and forced herself to take 
another sip.  Paranoia would not help.  An hour later, she resigned 
herself to the hibernation-sleep again. 

                          **********************



        She remembered Jason's wedding to Kit; their family had been 
invited by the Ranger, and her parents had gladly accepted.  He had 
been a faithful and capable house guard for some twelve years, and her 
parents were honored to be asked to join the festivities.  It was to 
be a traditional human ceremony, very serious, Kaylenn was told, and 
she was to be on her best behavior.  Her mother prepared in a very 
solemn manner, draping Kaylenn with the white cloth headdress that was 
fitting for a formal ceremony of such importance, and then dressed in 
her own most honored robes, with their ceremonial wrapping.

        David was taken care of by her father; he had told her mother 
that he would dress him appropriately, not to worry, and had taken off 
with him several hours earlier.  Kaylenn had been asked to be the 
"flower girl"--an odd title given to a young girl who was to throw the 
petals of plants on the floor in front of the bride.  They had gone 
through a quick dress rehearsal the night before, and Kaylenn was 
anxious about throwing the petals correctly.  She wanted to make her 
parents proud in her important job.  She was the one that got picked 
for it, and she did not want to mess up.  Besides, if she did, David 
would make fun of her.  This was important.

        When David and her father came back, David was wearing a little 
black suit, like the kind that Baldi wore, when he came to see them.  
She wondered if little Mary was going to come.  Probably not.  All the 
better then, since she always pulled Kaylenn's red hair and screamed.  
Little kids were such a nuisance.  

        David looked unhappy, and tried to take off his coat, but her 
mother made him leave it on.  Kaylenn stuck her tongue out at him, and 
smiled, knowing that she looked very pretty in her white dress.  David 
pulled off her headdress, and Fier had to put it back on again.  Her 
father came out of her parents' bedroom, dressed in his special 
Entil'Zha robes, and told David to sit down and leave your sister 
alone.  David went and sat down at the table and was quiet.  Kaylenn 
stood by the door and was quiet, too.

        Her mother came out a few minutes later, in a warm coat, and 
helped Fier put coats on Kaylenn and David, and then they all went out 
to the trans, where Tannier and Jason's temporary replacement were 
waiting.  It was so exciting!  Everyone was dressed up, and looking 
forward to the ceremony.  Her mother had assured her that it was a 
very serious occasion, but the sense that she got from her father was 
entirely different.  He seemed to be serious on the outside, but there 
was something very funny underneath.  She could not wait to see what 
he was going laugh about.  She liked it when he laughed, because his 
eyes would crinkle up, and some great weight would fall off of him for 
a few seconds.  She did not feel the pressure to try to carry it when 
he laughed.  And he always took time to laugh when she did something 
funny.

        When they arrived at the temple on the Ranger grounds outside of 
Tuzanor, there were white flowers draped around the doorway, and many 
men and women were outside, of several different races, all dressed in 
their most formal wear!  Beautiful ladies, and tall, dashing men...
there were a few other children, but none that she knew, so she stayed 
beside her mother as they walked inside.  People waved and said how 
pretty she looked, and she stretched herself up taller, and smiled 
back at them.

        Her mother turned down a hallway, and David and her father went 
in the other direction.  They would be meeting them again in a few 
minutes, her mother said.  They walked down the hallway, and went into 
a room, where there were so many ladies in beautiful dresses and fancy 
hair.  Mara, and Shalier, and another human with dark hair, two 
Minbari Rangers in a long wrap similar to her mother's, standing 
behind--Kit!

        Kit was so beautiful, and shining, and her white gown was so 
beautiful, and she was so tall, and Kaylenn wished that she could be 
that pretty when she grew up.  Kit had short red hair, like Kaylenn's, 
though not as bright.  She turned when she saw them come in, and bent 
down to say that she was honored that Kaylenn was to be her "flower 
girl."  Kaylenn curtsied, like her mother had taught her to, and 
everyone laughed and said she was very cute.  Then her mother said for 
her to do what Shalier told her, and that she would be out in the 
temple, watching for her, and then she left.

        They all prepared, finished fixing their dresses, and someone 
gave Kaylenn a basket of little red flower petals.  They were very 
soft.  When she heard the wind pipes blowing in the big room, she 
proudly stepped out onto the cloth on the floor, the first one to walk 
out, and walked slowly, one step, step, another step, step, to the 
blowing of the pipes.  Their beautiful, airy music filled the room, 
all over her head, and she walked forward, remembering--when David 
stuck his tongue out at her--to throw the flowers around her.  She 
threw a bunch at him, and then primly set her head high and let the 
rest of the petals fall in small curves around her feet, as she walked 
toward to the far end of the aisle.  It was a very beautiful ceremony, 
and very serious.  Her mother must have been right.

        But then the rest of the human tradition came, the parts that 
she had not read about in her Earth history lits, and with it came the 
first big party of her life.

                          **********************

        

        Child.

        Kaylenn's eyes flew open.  She was in a dark place, no light, but 
there were stars winking overhead.  Countless stars, tiny pinpricks in 
the blackness.  They were many different, glowing colors.

        Who is there? she asked.

        Who is ever there?

        She swallowed.  The voice was everywhere.  She turned around, 
looking.  It felt both familiar and alien, all at once.  Something 
inside of her hummed, warmth grew in her chest.  She felt the 
vibrations and looked down.  She was stunned to see a faint light on 
her chest, glowing.  She reached up, pushed the collar of her shirt 
away, and touched the warmth.

        Do not be afraid, child.

        She looked up, and saw a pair of warm golden eyes in the midst 
of the wisp of light hovering before her.  They blinked.  She blinked 
back, still holding her chest.

        Who are you? she asked, finding herself curiously unafraid.

        Oh, one of many reasons Why you are here.

        What do you want?

        If she sensed it correctly, the wisp appeared to find her 
question humorous.  

        You never think of new questions to ask, do you?

        She suddenly had a sense of something terribly ancient, and she 
frowned.

        Lorien?

        The golden eyes closed for a moment, then reopened.  She stood, 
silent, looking at the cloud of light that seemed to be everywhere and 
nowhere together.  After the space of several beats passed, she 
frowned.

        Why are you here?

        To keep a promise.  As are you.

        Yes.  She looked down, her fingers pressed against the warm
spot.  She raised her eyes again, fixed them on the golden ones.  Will
he die?

        The cloud turned away.

        You are here.

                         **********************

        

        The computer was chiming insistently, and she flung her eyes 
open, looked out at the canopy.  A blue-green sphere was rising out of 
the darkness: the homeworld of the Vorlons.  She sat up, switched the 
chime off, and sat, for a long while, just watching the planet turn.  
The mist in the atmosphere was thick, but she could make out the edges 
of continents.  There appeared to be more green than blue on the 
surface.  Minbar's scape was primarily water, and the crystal 
mountains that rose out of the sea were clear; there was very little 
green, in comparison to the blue, on the planet.  The Vorlons' world, 
perhaps, was slightly closer to the scape of Earth, though even that 
planet had less green.

        So, it was primarily thick vegetation, then.  The atmosphere 
appeared to hold the majority of the planet's water, if the mist was 
indeed water.  She had been unable to find any images of the planet; 
most of the knowledge was second- and third-hand, ancient manuscripts, 
hearsay.  The Vorlons, themselves, were a mystery; it was theorized 
that they were primarily energy-based beings, perhaps the product of 
countless millennia of evolution.  They had made some effort to leave 
their legacy as a mystery, also.  For some reason that no one had yet 
discovered, all probes that had been dispatched to the planet 
disappeared within a certain distance from its projected location in 
space.  If her ship's measurements were correct, she was well within 
that distance, and she was the first to be so since they had all "gone 
beyond the Rim" two decades earlier.

        Something invisible had occurred while she spoke with him, 
that was the only explanation for how she had made it in so close.  
According to the readouts, she would be within measurable atmosphere 
in less than two hours.  Taking a deep breath, she set the computer to 
scan for any sign of civilization, intelligence, even anything unusual 
on the surface.  Closing in at this rate, the scan would take a few 
hours to complete.  She tapped on the console, bit her bottom lip.  
After all this time, and it was finally within reach.

        Thank you, she sent out, but she received no response. 
After a few minutes, she pulled up another of Franklin's logs.

                          **********************


VIDEO ON

        "He's alive!"  Franklin shook his head in disbelief, one hand on 
his hip.  "I don't pretend to know how, or why.  He's got...energies...
in his bloodstream, all throughout his body, actually.  They appear to 
be repairing the cells, it's amazing!  I can't even begin to explain 
it; all I know is that they are.  They're on a cycle, though.  The 
computer detected a pattern; it's small, but it's there.  I don't know 
what it means, yet.  I hope I will find out, eventually."

        "No you don't, Dr. Franklin," she whispered.

                          **********************



        There was one unusual landmark: a pyramid-like structure of 
stones, only about ninety meters high.  It stood in the midst of the 
dense vegetation, unmarked and otherwise unimpressive.  It appeared to 
just be a pile of uneven stones, heaped to a point.  She had the 
sensors scans for any life signs around it, and there were many; 
creatures of countless different sizes and shapes moved about in the 
undergrowth, some which the computer could not identify, and some 
which it could--which was even more intriguing.  There did not seem to 
be any life beyond that of a prehistoric clime, and there was no 
unusual concentration of life signs around the stones.  It just 
appeared to be a heap of rocks in the midst of a jungle world that was 
devoid of any other sign of intelligence.

        She brought the ship down through the atmosphere, slowly, in 
intervals, to minimize the effect on the weather conditions.  The mist 
was extremely thick; it was primarily hydrogen and oxygen--water, but 
it also contained a high level of nitrates.  The warmth of the suns 
glowed through the mist, creating stunningly vivid rainbows, swirling 
with the eddies and winds around the ship.  

        Life signs registered species native to dozens of other worlds; 
temshwee birds, like the ones that sang on the spires of Tuzanor, 
whistled their notes across the landscape, exaltations flew over the 
treetops, wheeling in unison.  Great cats, like those of Brakir and 
Earth, prowled along, slept in the branches under the canopy of 
leaves.  There were Gree, amphibious lizard-like creatures, common to 
Narn, and even creatures that appeared to be evolved Curloo, from 
Centauri Prime.  There were billions of other species, alien in form 
and movement to the scanners, and Kaylenn cut the program short before 
it burned itself out trying to catalogue everything.

        She searched for a place to land the ship, and even as small as 
it was, it was difficult; the vegetation was too thick.  She finally 
retracted every part that could be retracted, and maneuvered entirely 
with the docking thrusters, keeping her acceleration to a minimum, 
until she had dropped under the canopy of leaves, and had found a 
thick growth of intertwined branches that the sensors estimated could 
hold the weight of the ship.  She carefully set down, testing the 
branches, and then keyed in the power-down sequence.

        The atmosphere was within safe levels for her to breathe, though 
it would feel thick and balmy in her lungs.  She looked out the 
viewscreen at the untouched world, rich with life.  Leaves hung down, 
their tips sweeping the viewscreen, pushed by lazy breezes.  Some sort 
of creature with a prehensile tail crawled down the bark of one of the 
great trees that her ship rested on.  After a while of looking out, 
she tapped in a few commands, shutting down most of the systems.  The 
inside of the ship dimmed, and the light coming in through the 
viewscreen highlighted everything in yellow-green.

        She pulled on the backpack, and gathered up a few basic survival 
items, her pike, her PPG, and several energy caps, and then slipped on 
a green poncho over everything.  Her hair was in a tight braid, out of 
the way, and she tucked the tail under the green material and pulled 
the hood of poncho over her head.  After turning for one, last look 
around the cockpit, she set the engines to standby, and turned to the 
hatch.  She took a deep breath, and unlocked and opened the door. 

        Warm, moist air flowed into the cool cockpit, and she let down 
the ladder, climbed out onto the massive branches beneath the ship.  
With a command from her remote controller, the ladder retracted, and 
the hatch swung slowly closed, and sealed.  She tucked the controller 
into a pocket on the leg of her pants, zippered it securely, and 
straightened up to look around.

        "What am I doing here?" she suddenly asked, of no one in 
particular.  She was nearly a hundred meters up in the great tree, 
beginning to realize how ridiculous a task it was to find a cure for 
her father in such a wild, untamed place.  Alone.  She swallowed, 
pushed the thought away, and frowned obstinately.  

        "I'm here, there's no point to giving up, now," she growled at 
herself.  She let her thoughts reach outward for a moment, testing her 
surroundings, looking for another sentience, but found nothing.  There 
did not appear to be anything particularly big and hungry that had 
noticed her, yet.  Keeping her senses aware, she fixed her sights on 
the network of branches, and began the long climb down to the floor of 
the forest. 

                         **********************



        She waded through the leaves for several hours, following the 
compass-heading towards the pile of stones.  Various wildlife swung 
over her head, slithered across the ground, shuffled in the 
undergrowth, but nothing approached her.  The winds whispered high up 
through the branches, but no breeze reached down to the forest floor; 
it was a thick and muggy air that she pushed through.  The hood had 
long since fallen back; strands of wet hair clung to her neck, and her 
clothing was dampened completely through.

        The alien environment was beautiful, too.  The sounds of bird 
calls and clicks, the laughter of the primate-creatures; they 
surrounded her, and filled her ears.  This place was so alive.  
Perhaps even artificially so...but then, how could she say that one 
form of life was more natural than another?  Her water bottle was 
emptying quickly; she stopped for a moment to take a sip, and ran a 
sleeve across her forehead.  She could see the highest stones through 
the vegetation, now.  Not much farther to go.

        When she finally made it out to the small clearing around the 
pyramid, the suns were low in the sky, and the light was fading.  She 
estimated that they would be completely down in little more than an 
hour.  She walked to the base of the stones and sat down on the lowest 
step with a great sigh.  This was utterly ridiculous.  Here she was, 
sitting on a pile of rocks on an abandoned planet, alone, half-way and 
then some across the galaxy from her family.  Why couldn't she have 
been reasonable and waited out her father's death like any sane person 
would have?  He would be gone in little more than two days, and she 
wouldn't be there to say good-bye.  To hold her mother, to cry, to 
feel David's comfort and strength.  To find peace with herself.

        She kicked the stone with her heel and fought back tears.  She 
was not going to cry out here on this stupid pile of rocks.  She 
shoved herself up, tucked the water bottle back into its pouch on the 
backpack, and turned to look up at the pyramid.  The suns had dropped 
behind the point of the formation.  If she was going up to the top, 
she needed to start now.  She pushed back her tears.  The steps were 
high, jagged in some places, uneven, but she grabbed for handholds, 
and slowly made her way up to the summit.

                         **********************



        It was unimpressive; just as jagged and uneven as the rest of 
the stones, as if clumsily cut from a larger rock and dropped on to 
the top of the pile.  She walked over to the far edge and sat down, 
pushed the backpack off, and, aching, leaned back against it for a 
long while, to watch the two suns dip below the horizon.  She could 
actually see them, now that she was high enough to look over the canopy 
of leaves.  As the light faded, and the air grew cooler, she pulled her 
sleeves back down and sat, frowning.  A faraway sun--or perhaps an 
unusually reflective moon--shone its dim light over the forest.

        What did she hope to find, really?  Why was she here?  She could 
go dissecting plants; but she didn't know what to look for, and even 
if she did, the chances of finding it were basically nonexistent.  
This running was pointless; it had brought her to a dead end.  She 
could not push that fact away, now.  So, she pulled up her legs to her 
chest, wrapped her arms around them, buried her face in the space 
between her knees, and just cried.  She cried until her chest felt 
hollow and her eyes were thick and puffy.  She cried until she was too 
exhausted to cry anymore, and then she reached out again, out with her 
mind, searching for him, for anyone, to hear.  

        She jumped when she recognized a calm presence, coming closer.  
No, it wasn't!  Half-stunned, she opened her eyes and looked down the 
side of the pyramid below her--yes, it was.  Relief mixed with 
confusion mixed with a thousand questions flooded into her mind, and 
she asked.

        What are you doing here?

        Lyta Alexander looked up, smiled.

        "Waiting for you," she answered, out loud.  She continued to 
make her way up the stones.

        Kaylenn sniffed and wiped her cheeks with her hands, dried them 
on her pants.  Unexpected wasn't quite the right word for this 
occasion.  Impossible seemed a better fit.

        "Wa--" she stopped, sniffed, cleared her throat.  "Waiting for 
me?"  She echoed, not understanding.  "Have you been waiting for me 
all of this time?"

        Lyta climbed over another step, she was now only twenty feet 
away.  She laughed, just a little.  "Since I left off contact with 
everyone?   No.  G'Kar and I had...some unfinished business."  She 
grunted, moved up another few feet.  "I came here only six days ago."

        "How--," Kaylenn straightened her legs, let them drop down 
again.  "--did you know I was coming?  I told no one."  She wiped 
under her eyes, embarrassed.

        "No need to be, Kaylenn.  There's nothing to be ashamed of."

        Lyta came up the last five feet and slowly, gingerly, settled 
herself down on the stone beside Kaylenn.  Wisps of her whitened hair 
trailed back in the breeze.  She sighed, grimaced.  "It's the years."  
She paused, turned to look at Kaylenn.  "I was asked to come; I think 
you know by whom."

        Kaylenn turned to look at the forest canopy before them, 
swallowed.  

        "Yeah," she replied, her voice rough, throat thick.  She looked 
at the sun-moon for while, took in a deep breath.

        "Why are you here?"  Lyta asked, quietly.

        "My father."

        "Yes, but what did you hope to find here?"

        "I don't know," Kaylenn said, frustrated.  She clenched and 
unclenched her fist.  "I don't...fragging...know.  I just thought that 
I might find someone or something that would save him."  She blew out 
a breath.  "I didn't know where else to go, I didn't really think 
about it--I just ran."

        "Away from him?"

        "No...yes...no."

        "Which is it?"

        "I left him and Mother behind, yes, but I wasn't--I'm not--
running, specifically, from them."

        "Then what are you running from?"

        Kaylenn slapped the stone with her hand, shook her head.  
"Myself, Minbar, the universe, I don't know.  It was insane, 
unrealistic, and stupid.  I ignored myself for weeks, strained to fill 
my mind with things to keep it all away.  I thought, just maybe, 
maybe, I could find Kosh, or Lorien, and ask them for help."

        "Everyone dies, eventually, Kaylenn."

        "I know.  But why him, why now?  He's losing almost half of his 
life!"

        "He made that choice twenty years ago, Kaylenn, and no one can 
second-guess it now."

        "I feel so helpless!"

        "Is that what you're running from?"

        "That, and the fact that a member of the Grey Council is dead 
because of me, and a human telepath"--a hot and angry thought caught 
her--"and now, indirectly, my own father!"

        Lyta turned to Kaylenn, her eyes flashing.

        "Don't you dare sink yourself into that trap, Kaylenn Mir 
Sheridan!  You are not responsible for him, and you are not responsible 
for his death!"

        A cool wave swept over her, and Kaylenn swallowed a lump, her 
temper more subdued.  She turned her hot face away, frustrated and 
angry, chastised.  "I'm sorry I said it.  It--it just...slipped out."  
She was not going to pity herself.  Lyta was right, and she knew it.  
Somehow, it was just easier to face her father's death if she forced 
herself to take the blame and lived with the guilt gnawing at her, 
inside--but it was a self-pitying lie, nothing more.

        She sat up, wiped at a rebellious tear.

        "Let him go, Kaylenn."

        Kaylenn let out a long, shaky breath.

        "I can't."

        "Yes, you can."

        "I don't want to."

        "I know.  But it must be done.  He wants you to--you know that.  
He wants you to live, and grow, and bear his and Delenn's honor, like 
he knows you will.  He wants you to live, because the reason that he 
did it was so that you could live--so we all could."  Lyta paused, her 
voice softened.  "You're something special, Kaylenn.  Only the universe 
knows why, but you have abilities, knowledge, a spirit like no other 
that I've known.  Your mother, Kosh, Lorien--your father gave you that.
Don't waste it, child."

        Kaylenn burst into tears again, half-angry at herself for being 
this emotional at all.  She kept the curtain in place, though, not 
allowing her mind to slip out, to completely release her emotions.  
Lyta must have sensed some of her conflict, anyway, for she gathered 
Kaylenn in her arms and rocked her gently while she cried.

        She had to let him go, to cherish the memories, but not live in 
them.  Yes.  But, oh, it ached so badly.  His calming, steady presence 
would be gone.  

        After a few minutes, the tears flowed to a trickle, then 
stopped.  Lyta pulled away and smiled at her.  Kaylenn nodded, 
sniffed.  Smiled, just a little, back.  She sat up and looked down at 
the canopy of trees, practicality once again inserting itself into her 
mind, and she frowned.  There would be time to mourn later.

        "How did you get here?"

        "The Byron; it's hidden."

        "How did you hide it from the scans I did?"

        Lyta smiled.  "I have my ways, child.  I have been roaming about 
this galaxy for a while longer than you."

        "Where is it?"

        "A short way from here.  It is large enough for you to put your 
ship in the bay."

        "Oh, good.  It has a better jump engine, I hope."

        "Yes; we'll be back on Minbar in five days...perhaps slightly 
longer."

        "Oh."  They wouldn't make it back in time; she'd known that.  
She had had a crazy, tiny hope, though.

        Lyta nodded, then slowly stood up.  "Come, we have an appointment 
to keep."

        Kaylenn frowned, started pulling her backpack on.  "We do?  With 
whom?"

        But Lyta was silent, and she simply started climbing back down 
the side of the pyramid.

                         **********************



        There was a dark recess in the rocks; Kaylenn could not remember 
having seen it before, and the scanners certainly had not picked it 
up.  Lyta, below her, disappeared into it, and Kaylenn jumped down 
from the base stones and landed only a few steps from the doorway.  
Some dim moonlight shone a few feet into the entrance, but she could 
see nothing in there past the edge of the shadows.  She sensed 
something other than Lyta's presence, but it was both unknown and 
familiar all at once, and she frowned, confused.  She paused before 
the doorway; no noise emerged from the opening, and a distinct sense 
of a precipice presented itself to her.

        "Lyta?"

        Come in, do not be afraid, the woman responded, off to the side 
of the doorway.  Taking a deep breath, Kaylenn walked inside, waiting 
for her eyes and senses to adjust to the darkness.  She turned to the 
right to find Lyta, but the woman shook her head and pointed past 
Kaylenn's shoulder.  Kaylenn, turned, one hand involuntarily moving to 
her side, even as she knew any physical weapon would be useless.  This 
presence was ancient, and he knew her.  She straightened as she turned, 
lifting her chin in defiance.  For some unidentifiable reason, she 
refused to hold the presence in awe, and she somehow knew that he 
approved of her attitude.

        She turned, and recognized him, knowing immediately who he was 
through both sight and mind.  She knew better than to ask how or why; 
he had always been there, she knew.

        The small headpiece tilted forward in an almost deferential 
movement.

        Child, he said, with a surprising degree of warmth.  Come.

        Kosh turned around, moved deeper into the shadows.

                          **********************

        

        "What are you thinking?"  Lyta sat back in the seat of the small 
cabin, the book laid open on her lap.  Kaylenn looked away from the 
swirling red storms of hyperspace and turned to the older woman.

        "Just remembering my parents.  I feel like I've just been 
watching my memories of the past few years of their life like some 
sort of good-bye vid."

        Lyta was silent, watching her.

        "I never really knew them, not really.  I mean, I know them as 
my parents--people who used to be so tall, and who kept getting 
shorter.  My mother, always strong, beautiful, wise.  My father, 
always the President, or the Anla'Shok Na, or the hero of another 
campaign against some last, gasping remnant of the Shadows, anyone 
threatening the Alliance.  When Dr. Franklin went back to Earth Central 
again, a few weeks ago, he left me the key to his vid library, and I 
downloaded them all, watched many of them in the time it took me to 
get to the Vorlon homeworld.  It never occurred to me--I never thought 
of my parents as young people who led exciting lives before I was born.
I knew Dad, I knew he and Mother had done important things, that we 
were the First Family of the ISA, but I never took the time to wonder 
how we'd gotten there.  Dr. Franklin, G'Kar, you--all part of something 
bigger than I've ever known.

        "I've still only seen pieces, some of the official details.  All 
of their lives, they've been important, busy people.  There was always 
a great sense of duty, propriety, responsibility, business, high 
standards.  Now..." she sighed, looked down at her hands, then back 
up.  "I've only just touched Mother, on occasion, and felt a...a 
heaviness, creeping farther into her.  Dad could always make her smile, 
he would pick her up, she'd look so content in his arms."

        "He did it often?"  Lyta was smiling, a faraway look in her eyes.

        "I've only seen him do it twice--once when she was sick, he 
carried her from the living room to the bedroom, and once when she 
teased him in the kitchen.  I can just remember the strongest, warmest 
blanket of contentment and peace that emanated from her, both times.  
That last time, not long ago, I was studying in my bedroom, with a 
growing headache, trying to stay awake and read the lit, when I 
suddenly knew that my mother was just...utterly content.  I got up and 
went towards the kitchen, where I knew they were, and looked around 
the edge of the doorway.  He was carrying her towards their bedroom, 
and she was smiling, kissing his neck.  I knew I should have gone back 
to studying, but I watched them walk all the way, and then I went back, 
took my books, and went outside to study.

        "I guess...what I'm trying to say is that they've had to endure 
so much hardship, duty, and pain, and it's a balance that they have 
experienced, in equal measure, love.  I don't think I'll ever have the 
chance for that--that rare kind of bond.  I know that I will miss Dad 
terribly, but Mother, I think, will never quite be the same again.  
He's leaving us, saying good-bye even now."  She looked down at her 
hands, then back up at the forward viewscreen, and sighed.  "It's not 
just that--I feel like something is building, something that I can't...
quite...identify.  It's...related, but I'm not sure how."       

        "I know.  The same sense has been building in me since you came."

        Kaylenn was quiet, thinking of Kosh.

        "Did you know he was going to be there?"

        Lyta knew her thoughts, gave a soft laugh, and looked out the 
viewscreen.  "He was always there."

        "Hmm," Kaylenn nodded.  They were both silent for a long moment.

        "How close are we?"  

        They were heading towards Corianna 6, to take a ship home.  Why 
they were bringing an abandoned ship in that system back to Minbar was 
not clear, but that was their destination, as they had been instructed.
Kaylenn entertained the tiny hope that something aboard the ship would 
help her father, but she had not spoken of it to Lyta.  She sighed, 
looked at the tiny display on the corner of her chrono.  

        "Three days."

                          **********************

        

        Some of the younger couples had moved out onto the dance floor 
in the center of reception hall, and were starting to sway to the beat 
of the music.  Sheridan looked up from his conversation with Drenann in 
surprise.  This was no light and airy Minbari crystal pipe music--this 
was some pop human music with a pounding beat.  It had been years since 
he had last heard any, and for some inexplicable reason, he grinned.

        "John?"  Drenann looked puzzled.  "Was it something I said?"

        "Oh--no," Sheridan said, turning to watch most of the human 
Rangers at the wedding, including Kit and Jason, pour on to the dance 
floor.  Fancy dress set aside, they were going to dance.  He grinned.  
"Excuse me."

        "Of course," the elder Minbari said, turning back to those at his 
table.  "What is that infernal noise?"

        Sheridan made his way around to the edge of the crowd, to watch 
the bride and groom dance together.  Both were in their late thirties, 
and watching them relaxed and moving together around the floor made him 
feel younger than his sixty years.  And the beat was pretty good.  
Still, those Minbari present might not look well upon a man of his 
years and position to be dancing to such music.  Ceremonial movements 
were one thing, but this was another entirely.  Oh, he wished he could.

        Delenn came out of the ladies' room across the hall and saw her 
husband's tall form moving slightly to the music.  A smile made its way 
across her features, and she strode purposefully across the side of the 
room.  She glanced around, and saw most of her people looking at each 
other in confusion.  They had never been to a party like this before, 
and she only once--at the small reception to her own wedding, some ten 
years earlier.  The style of the music still had not changed, and so, 
smiling, she made her way around to the side of dance floor, and the 
people parted to let her in.  She was standing on the edge of the crowd 
watching the bride and groom dance when Kit caught her eye and winked.

        Delenn raised her eyebrows, Kit nodded, and Delenn took a deep 
breath.  She stepped to the edge of the dance floor and began to move 
gently, in time to the music, looking straight through the crowd to her 
husband, whose mouth had dropped slightly open.  She smiled her best 
come-hither smile and held out one hand.

        Sheridan noticed the couple beginning to move back, and wondered 
why, when he saw a dark head of hair with a distinctively curved 
bonecrest move out on to the floor.  She looked up at him, through the 
people, and began swaying in a graceful movement, perfectly timed to 
the music, yet somehow apart from it.  She smiled, so beautiful, and 
extended one small hand towards him.  Well, if she wanted to, who was 
he to deny her?  He grinned wickedly, watching her move, and the people 
on either side in front of him moved away to let him through.

        When his hand touched hers, they cheered, and Delenn laughed.  
Dance, her eyes said.  As you wish, he replied, and so they did.

        First, just to entertain the curious Minbari who had joined the 
crowd, they steepled their hands in front of their chests and bowed, 
in the formal Minbari gesture of greeting.  The crowd laughed.  

        She moved, and he moved with her.  Ten years since the last time 
that they had done this together.  She was so graceful, and her green 
dress was both modest and relaxed.  They were breathless when the song 
ended, and he bent down, captured her mouth in a warm kiss.  The crowd 
around them clapped, and she smiled, pulled away, and held him for a 
moment.  Smiling, they walked off the floor, left the newlyweds to the 
fun, and made their way across the room, back to the table, laughing, 
and catching their breath.

         Kaylenn and David pushed their way back out from crowd, and 
stood near the music speakers, watching their parents across the room.

        "Did ya know they could dance?" he asked.

        "No," Kaylenn said, thoughtfully.  "I always thought they were 
too old."

        "You want to dance?"

        "With you?  Yuck, you're my brother!"

        "C'mon," David said, taking her hand.  "Let's show them what we 
can do."

        "'Kay," she replied, and smiled.

        They danced for a song, then Jason asked to dance with her, and 
so David gave her to him.  Then, her father came back, and bowed, and 
asked if he could be honored by a dance with her.  He spun her around, 
and twirled her, and at the end, he lifted her feet off the floor, and 
she spread her arms and flew.

                           **********************



        When the proximity alarm sounded for the Corianna beacon, both 
women were in the cabin, waiting for the jump from hyperspace.  
Kaylenn's stomach was a mass of knots, countless conflicting hopes and 
fears battling in her mind and body.  The event was building to a 
climax, and she could feel enough energy around and through the ship to 
set the hairs on her arms on end.  Lyta, also, was hovering over the 
controls, waiting for the moment that they dropped into realspace.  
Kaylenn forced herself to relax a breath that she had not even realized 
she was holding.

        The yellow swirling point opened before them, and they shot out 
into the blackness of space.  Kaylenn gasped when she recognized the 
Whitestar lying before them, several klicks away.  Lyta put her hand on 
Kaylenn's arm, pointing out to the stars with a stunned gesture.

        "Look!"  She whispered.

        Millions upon millions of tiny lights were coalescing in the 
infinite scene before them.  Kaylenn felt a minute movement within 
herself, and was shocked to see a tiny bit of glowing energy stream out 
from her chest when she looked down at her tunic.  It flowed out 
through the viewscreen in a wisp and was gone, almost before she had 
noticed its existence.  She turned to Lyta, her mouth open.

        What...?

        Lyta smiled an tiny, mysterious smile and nodded her head back 
out to the viewscreen.  Kaylenn looked out at the Whitestar, as they 
edged closer to the stilled ship.  Her stomach dropped and her mind 
went cold with horror as she suddenly knew who was inside.  The 
countless lights continued to draw closer to the command deck of the 
ship, and she stood up, throwing her hands out against the viewscreen.

        "No..." she whispered, horrified and helpless and awed all at 
once.  

        Impossibly enough, all of the lights paused in space, hung for 
two heartbeats, and then plunged into the ship, drawn into one massive 
implosion of light inside the command deck.  Space hung, she felt her 
heartbeat slow, the consistency of the air turned to molasses as she 
heard herself send out one, last, desperate mind-scream.

        Nooooo--

        The light paused, and smiled down at her.

        Good-bye, little one.

        Daddy!

        And then space went black and silent.

                           **********************



        Delenn curled into a fetal position, her fingers clutching the 
pillow, and her heart cried out in searing loss.  Tears streamed across 
her cheeks, and she sobbed, torn in half.

                           **********************



        Kaylenn realized that a hand was on her forehead, and she opened 
her eyes.

        "...fine," she said, through a dry throat.  The hand lifted away.

        She stubbornly pushed herself up from where she had fallen across 
the chair in an uncomfortable sprawl, and looked out through the 
viewscreen.  Space was silent, normal, dark, and lonely.  The empty 
Whitestar hung desolately in space, like a signpost that had lost its 
direction.  

        She reached out with her mind to see the ship, found it utterly 
empty.  She felt the lines of moisture drying on her cheeks, and 
absently wiped a hand across them.  There was nothing, nothing left.  
Even the computer system was on stand-by: Lyta had contacted the ship 
and received the inactive duty message, and it sat, blinking, on the 
vid screen.  They were nearing the Whitestar, and they saw the darkness 
inside the command deck; it was, to all appearances, a dead ship.  
Kaylenn found the symbolism to be a dull ache in her chest.  

        "Even in death, they are linked," Lyta murmured.

        Kaylenn frowned, drained and snappish.  "I think that's reading 
into it a bit, much, don't you?  It's just a ship."  She was not in the 
mood for mystical and opaque statements.  She wanted to know why and 
how and just because, but there would never be any answers, and the 
broken thread of her father's life that was left hanging in mystery 
angered her more than anything else.  She was Anla'Shok, she was a 
medical student; she wanted to be able to explain, to catalogue, to fix 
an explanation to--

        "Not the ship."  Lyta's low voice broke into her thoughts.

        "What?"

        "I was speaking of the station," she continued, almost inaudible.
Her eyes were black and tears stood out glistening on her cheeks.  Lids 
closed over the pure onyx eyes and more tears edged out.  A wisp of 
whitened hair clung to the sweat on her forehead.  Kaylenn realized 
that the woman was seeing something else, somewhere else.

        "May I?"  Kaylenn asked.  Lyta nodded, slightly.

        Kaylenn closed her own eyes and reached out to touch the older 
woman's mind with her own.  The moment her translucent fingers met the 
swirling energy, she was suddenly thrown into another star system, one 
that was a quarter of the way across the galaxy.  She immediately 
recognized the brownish-red planet and the tiny blue-and-gray space 
station that hung in the sky before it: Babylon 5.  She watched as 
from a far distance, peering through the stars, looking past the 
inactive jump gate struts to the small cadre of interstellar ships that
were flying in a procession away from the station.  At a certain point,
they stopped, each turning in succession, until their command decks all 
faced the old station.  Kaylenn felt Lyta swallow a thick lump in her 
throat, and she wondered at the woman's attachment to the scene.

        No one left unchanged, child.

        Kaylenn continued to watch as the station's lights were 
extinguished, deck by deck, in a horrifyingly precipitous way, each 
deck moving one step closer to complete darkness.  After the last light 
went out, there was a silence, Lyta held her breath, and Kaylenn found 
herself also watching, transfixed.  She waited, and then, so very 
slowly, devastatingly, explosions began to rip through the massive 
seams of the old station, bucking metal and flame alike.  Fires bloomed 
and disappeared, smoke and debris floated in the void of space.  

        And when it was over, Lyta closed her eyes, shutting the scene 
out.

        "This day..." she said, her voice a whisper, "...is coming soon.
The decommissioning is scheduled in two days."

        Kaylenn blinked, cleared her mind.  She look up at Lyta's words.

        "How did you see it, if it has not yet happened?"

        "How did we see this, child?"  Lyta asked, making a small head 
movement towards the deathly-quiet ship outside of their viewscreen.  
"Who am I to ask?"

        Kaylenn was silent, letting the question hang in the air.  There 
was too much uncertainty in the universe, too many questions left 
hanging in the infinite expanse of space.  It both frustrated and 
intrigued her.  She reached up to push aside the dampened strand of 
hair from Lyta's pale forehead.  Her fingers were trembling, and she 
did not try to still them.  The woman looked up at her and smiled ever 
so slightly.  Taking a deep breath, she raised her head and looked up 
at the form of the Whitestar as it floated past the viewscreen.

        "Well then, let's finish what we were sent to do," she said 
quietly.

        "Do you know how to fly a Whitestar?"  Kaylenn asked, pulling her 
fingers away.

        "Not really," Lyta answered.  "Do you?"

        "I'm familiar with some aspects of the control system."

        "Is that a no?"

        "It's a maybe."

        "I see.  Well, I'm sure that between the two of us, we can get it 
moving towards home."

        "One way or another."  Kaylenn raised one eyebrow.

        "Right."  Lyta gave a short laugh.  "You get the bay doors open.
I'll maneuver us into place."

        Kaylenn closed her eyes, reached out mentally to the Whitestar's 
conduitry, and began searching for the bay control system.

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        When Delenn returned from the decommissioning ceremony with Susan 
Ivanova and Stephen Franklin, they found the Whitestar floating in 
orbit over the capital city of Minbar.  Researchers scoured the 
Whitestar for months, but no sign was ever found of John J. Sheridan's 
remains.  Rumors circulated; the Corianna 6 beacon had recorded unusual 
readings, and they were used to fabricate any number of ideas of what 
had happened.

        Lyta left after giving her ship’s data crystal to Kaylenn, 
disappearing again, out into the untraceable blackness of space.

        Kaylenn gave it to David.  He watched it once, and gave it back 
to her.  They held each other for a few minutes, cried quietly, and 
then he left, silent.  She gave it to her mother, who held it so 
tightly at first that her knuckles whitened; then she put it away and 
talked softly to Kaylenn for a long while, about how she had saved 
John's life, and he, hers.  She spoke, sometimes in whispers, sometimes 
with sad laughter, about him and about her memories, until she fell 
asleep, exhausted.  Kaylenn went to her own room to mourn alone.

        She rose early the next morning, as the first rays of light came 
into her bedroom.  Remembering some part of a half-forgotten dream, she 
made her way down the hallway and out to the balcony, and stopped, 
seeing her mother sitting there, watching the sunrise.  There was a 
sense of peace and contentment, as the warm light shone onto her face.
She smiled and looked to her right, then back out to the sun.  

        Taking in a deep breath of the cool morning air, Kaylenn smiled, 
and stood there in silence as the dawn light warmed her.  She smiled 
inwardly and watched as the sun rose higher.  Perhaps if she turned, 
she would see him, too.

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© 1999 Rachel Smith Cobleigh
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Author's Notes and Acknowledgements

(November 13, 1998 -  May 18, 1999)     

Gratia to: the Lord, who gives and who takes away.  I am always under 
His molding hands; to Josh Sanofsky, the one who continues to guide my 
writing with a trained and critical eye, and who never fails to make me 
laugh--thanks for just being you; to my own father, for his 
encouragement and devotion to the Lord.  To you, Dad, for always 
challenging me.  Thanks.

(pointless) DISCLAIMER:  The characters and situations of the 
television program "Babylon 5" are the creations and property of J. 
Michael Straczynski, TNT, Warner Bros., and Babylonian Productions, and 
have been used without permission. No copyright infringement is 
intended.

Rating: PG
Classification:  Future, Romance, New Character
Summary:  John and Delenn's 17-year-old daughter seeks closure before 
her father's death.  Sequel to 'One Moment Here, Another Gone'.
Keywords: John & Delenn Romance, New Character, Future Story, semi-
alternate timeline (?), telepathy, telekinesis, DNA alteration, death.
*Contains general spoilers for all five seasons, including knowledge of 
the events in the finale episode, "Sleeping In Light".
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